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Derek Lockwood Drift gently into oblivion BASIC INFO NAME: Derek Rolfe Lockwood AGE: 28 ; Oct 31st GENDER: Male HAIR: Dark Brown - Black EYES: Green (L) - Blue (R) Heterochromia HEIGHT: 5'11" SPECIES: Human FLUENT LANGUAGES: English, Russian, Spanish, French, Italian, Romanian, German, Japanese PB - FC: Jack Falahee SEXUALITY: Bisexual KINK LIST: Here OCCUPATION: SHIELD medic - Underground doctor CURRENT RESIDENCE: New York City - SHIELD HQ OU! UNIVERSE: MCU SHIELD DIVISION: Medical - Field Agent CLEARENCE: Level 7 - Blue PERMISSIONS BACKTAGGING: ✔ ( work keeps my time limited ;;; ) 4TH-WALLING: X THREADJACKING: ✔ MIND-READING: ✔ FIGHTING: ✔ ROMANCE: ✔ INJURY: ✔ KILLING: ✔	ABOUT [ CW: Mentioned abuse and self-harm. ] Derek is an underground doctor primarily outside the MCU timeline. In the MCU, which is his original universe, he is a SHIELD agent and medic who has been with the organization for a handful of years. Outside of the SHIELD uniform, he loves to wear minimalistic asymmetrical clothing. He does own more casual and formal wear that he dresses in accordingly. He sports a single tattoo; a wolf-like beast bust on his left forearm with a crown in black line work, it was a drawing his older brother had drawn that he decided to have in the form of a tattoo to preserve his memory. He enjoys playing the piano, training, trying to break his lock picking record or twenty seconds and the occasional gardening. He does have a photographic memory. He has a number of scars; the most noticeable is the long scar that goes across the dorsal base of his nose to his cheekbones on either side. ( It was purposely made by his father with a broken bottle. ) He has a few other scars that were made by both of his parents in their drunken rage, while others were his own doing, either by landing wrong in a parkour stunt or purposely. The only noticeable of his own self-inflicted scars is the long scar parallel to the vein on his right forearm, which was caused by a lapse in his therapy after his relationship with his ex. Derek is an extremely patient person when it comes to people he encounters and cares for, making sure his friends or his SO are taken care of before ever tending to his own needs. He prefers to be their source of comfort before ever voicing any of his own troubles, usually burying them deep as if they never existed. He's very quiet when it comes to mentioning anything about his past including his scars, his past relationships especially with his ex, Nikolas, his biological parents, and the death of his brother. He won't talk about any of it unless he trusts someone enough to reveal that part of himself. He holds a deeply rooted sense of guilt for the events that lead to his brother's death and continues to, even now, blame himself for it, even though he was a child when it happened. He hates his biological parents with the core of his being. His father is the cause for most of the bigger scars on his body due to his spouts of anger while he drank. Derek holds a certain amount of fear that his ex-boyfriend, Nikolas will find him after all the years they've been apart. They met at the beginning of his work as an underground doctor, Nikolas was overly protective and abusive to the point Derek had to start concealing his identity while he worked his jobs. Not only was it to protect his own identity from the people worked for so no one could track him down and threaten him or Mama Lockwood but it was to also hide from him and the authorities. His relation with Nikolas traumatized him for a number of years and made him terrified at keeping any sort of stable romantic relationship with anyone he dated. He kept everyone at a distance and only had one-night stands to occupy his need for companionship. He sought out therapy during this period and still continues it today as part of his regular schedule ( even while in SHIELD. ) He lacks any sense of self-preservation ever since he entered his teen years, thinking he deserves any consequences for his actions including any that could potentially get him killed as his way of punishing himself for his brother's death. When he was younger, he always looked out for himself and his well-being but now that was completely thrown out the window. Derek is self-taught in parkour, using close buildings around his neighborhood or in the city to learn the skill. He used it a lot in escaping the police when he would steal hospital supplies as his way of helping out his mother's clinic when supplies ran low. There were a few times when he used it to escape a tail. Now, he uses it in the field when working with SHIELD or as an escape option. Since joining SHIELD, he received formal training in hand to hand combat, which he does occasionally do sparring matches with the other agents whenever he feels cooped up in medical. He also uses them as a means to vent out bottled energy or frustrations and anger. He received training in knives, handguns and sniper rifles as well. Learning proper gun use that he only uses out in the field. He vastly prefers working with a blade due to his medical training and the fact that they are silent. He's self-taught in working with a bo staff, which he picked up on his own and keeps and extendable bar on him at all times. Usually, keeping it in a thigh holster or inside his boot. - Extra Underground doctor branch off info - If interacting with other supernatural characters ( vampires, werewolves, and the like ) and he operates out of his building as mentioned in the history section below, he will nearly always be caring for 3 young werewolves by the name of Rhys, Jasper, and Anita unless stated otherwise. They make an appearance in a particular CR plotline and have stuck around so their mentioning will only happen if the situation allows.
	HISTORY [ CW: Mentioned child abuse ] Derek was born in Berlin on October 31st, he only lived in the country until he was two before his family moved to the states. He grew up in a household with an overworked mother, semi-alcoholic father and protective older brother for the first five years of his life. His older brother, Viktor, died when he was six after he took him on a car ride to get away from his parent's arguing over financials that had led to furniture being thrown. Derek was lucky to have left that crash alive, having a broken arm and various other injuries. From that point forward, after the first few months of recovery had run its course, his parents downward spiraled hard. To being unemployed, alcoholic, abusive types via constant arguments over finances, the mourning of his brother and blaming Derek for Viktor's death. This went on for another six more years. Derek spent those years frequently hiding in the smallest corners he could fit himself into in his brother's room whenever an argument spiked up. He would go to school with constant injuries of some kind, be it small cuts from broken glass or bruises, which caused concerns from his teachers and led him to be bullied to the point of isolation from his classmates. Eventually, it got bad enough to the point he would skip school altogether and for days at a time. Raising concerns that led to occasional visits from officials, which would anger his parents even more, after they put up a show of 'were a perfectly fine family'. Before his thirteenth birthday, Derek had enough of living in fear of his own parents, deciding to run away on a rainy evening with a backpack of his most prized possessions; a photo of him and his older brother, one of his brother's favorite books, a letter that he had written for him from before he was born and lastly, his stuffed jackal. Running away to a two-story clinic that was a few blocks away from his school, run by the Lockwood's. Its primary residents were the elderly whose family hardly seemed to visit but couldn't afford the more expensive care facilities. He knew if there was any place that would be safe enough for him to hide, it would be there, it also saved him from having to sleep on the playground of a park in the same area. Dr. Lockwood took the nightly rounds with two other nurses, having spotted Derek in the waiting room, drenched to the bone and shaking. It took her some coaxing to get him to follow her into one of the unoccupied rooms on the main floor as she started treating his injuries. She wasn't going to pry as to how he got said injuries until he was comfortable enough to explain everything that he wanted her to know. After a few months of living at the clinic and under Dr. Lockwood's care, Derek asked her to adopt him so he'd never have to return to that nightmare of a house. She agreed and started the legal process for it until it was official and Derek took on her last name as his own. He switched between going back to school and being homeschooled, enjoying homeschooling more due to the lingering fear of being bullied again. Living under the roof of the clinic, he learned various languages spoken by the clinic's residents to make it easier for himself to understand them; Russian, Romanian, Spanish, Italian and French were the main ones being spoken. The older residents took a liking to Derek and cared for him like he was their family member. An elderly couple who lived at the clinic donated their piano as to provide some entertainment to the residents, playing in the evenings to some help of them sleep. Derek learned how to play said piano from them after his school lessons, getting encouragement from all the residents who lived in the main room. It only left him heartbroken when they both passed away, deciding to play in their absence to keep their memory alive. (A photo of the three of them sits famed by the music sheet holder.) He adored listening to any and all stories the older residents tended to give. Having a small staff of four doctors, including Mama Lockwood, and four nurses, rotating shifts, Derek decided he wanted to learn how to help people as they did. Asking them to teach him anything they could when they were tending to the residents, leading him to want to attend medical school to be just like them. But finances were tough for Mama Lockwood, with running the clinic, to be able to provide the proper funds for the schooling. Moving on to Derek's late teens into his senior year of high school, Derek found himself in an unwanted predicament of being a personal doctor to various neighborhood gangs and mob families in the city after tending to injured individuals in a shootout. He agreed to the job under a set ground of conditions since it paid handsomely and he needed to look out for his own safety. He didn't pay a set allegiance to any particular party, remaining a neutral and untouchable asset. Mama Lockwood had her suspicions about these activities when he started coming home late with blood splattering his clothes, warning him that she wouldn't be able to protect him if he ever got caught by the police. The illegal activity all too familiar to her due to her connections with the Russian mob family. Derek took the necessary precautions for his identity to remain hidden if any of the members outside of the leaders were to threaten him or come looking for him. Each group used a nickname for when referring to him; Hellhound and Cerberus being the favorites. They even came up with a logo to be used on street alleyways and abandoned buildings in regards to that they were safe houses for any medical needs. (The crowned wolf-esque beast that's tattooed on his arm as the inspiration.) He'd even go as far as to wear animal masks to cover his face and use a voice changer. Mama Lockwood brought one of her connections into the mix of Derek's protection, giving him the services of one of her close friends, Dmitri, that worked as a bodyguard for the mob. Once Derek was able to get his medical license, he continued to work for the groups as a source of income to help with the clinic, even bribing his way into having building connections within the certain hospitals to sneak out supplies if he couldn't outright steal it like he used to when he was younger. Which used to get him all too familiar with the cops but never served any time and only got slaps on the wrist and warnings since they knew his heart was in the right place. As he got older, he continued to work as an underground doctor with dangerous connections due to his great standings with his employers, working out of a seemingly abandoned building on the edge of town that he remolded the inside to be his home. The basement is his primary office restricted to leaders and their plus-ones, for lesser members, he visits selected safe houses around the city that knows when are in use as soon as someone walks into them. He offers another service along with his medical expertise and that is stealing information by breaking into offices if the pay is high enough. - SHIELD branch off history - It wasn't until a SHIELD mission had gone awry that he found himself at a strangely good place at the worst possible time, quickly aiding wounded agents despite not knowing if they were friends or foes. After being interrogated for his work, there was some deliberation, and was given the offer to join the organization. Everything about him would go on record, including the illegal career that he had in the medical field prior if he accepted, and he did no questions asked. Derek saw it as turning over a new leaf and starting over but the groups that depended on him weren't pleased about it. Threats were made to make him stay, all of which were shot down by Dmitri, and an agreement was made. It wasn't a complete out but if he was ever in the area, he would pick up work but his priority was SHIELD. Dmitri protected Mama Lockwood while he wasn't around from said groups and it was all fine and dandy because the threat of being turned over to the government or having his services completely null and voided was bigger than what they could hang over his head. There was a period of jumping between the Academy and another facility to gain the training that he needed to be a medical and field agent. Derek found time to continue his therapy sessions to manage his mental health and past trauma with a new therapist that was closer to work. During his training period, he met his close friends, Agent Cooper and Agent Urbina. He slowly rose up the ranks, gaining him higher clearance levels to be of more use for medical. While he primarily patches up other agents, from time to time, he gets the opportunity to patch up the Avengers. In some instances he gets assigned with them, others he stays at base. Depending on the cr, he can act as a handler for certain individuals and offer a kinder comforting authority than their higher-ups. Agent Cooper belongs to whatshisface and Agent Urbina belongs to overplays while Derek belongs to me.
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